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Although my testimony is a constant work in progress, and has ebbed and flowed, it never disappeared. I have never questioned my decision to join the Church. Sometimes I flinch and sometimes I grieve, most recently with the news that Mormons were instrumental in developing and authorizing torture protocols.

And sometimes, maybe more often than I care to admit, there is silence in response to my prayers. I try not to worry about it. So I was interested in the news that even Mother Teresa had a spiritual crisis - and for decades. If Mother Teresa had doubts, what hope is there for me? I guess the point to remember is that she persevered despite this overwhelming secret, she managed to live a Christ-like existence. I could only try to do the same.

NPR: Mother Teresa's Spiritual Crisis at Center of New Book

Time: Mother Teresa's Crisis of Faith
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On August 25th, 2007 01:28 am (UTC), amour_shiree commented:
Doesn't it sometimes feel like you will never get it right? I go through the same thing sometimes and then I think to myself how do other Christians do it. I am learning though that they too go through it but just don't mention it for fear of what it looks like. Kind of sad too because I think the greatest part of being Christian is the community of believers that you are part of.

Being Christ-like when you are not feeling like Christ is terrifically hard...I admire Mother Theresa for this...
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On August 25th, 2007 11:00 am (UTC), ticklethepear replied:
Yeah. I try to remember that there's value in trying if not always succeeding....
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On August 25th, 2007 02:26 am (UTC), rmurphysf commented:
I thought about you after reading this article in the Chronicle:

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2007/08/18/DDNBRJU91.DTL

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On August 25th, 2007 11:02 am (UTC), ticklethepear replied:
I've never seen her in person but she's very admired in the Mo world. I've known so many women who've made the same kind of marriage. I think for a long time gays and lesbians were told "just get married and you'll be cured."
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On August 25th, 2007 11:32 am (UTC), congogirl commented:
I don't think that anyone who ever pursued a spiritual path has been exempt from questioning. It is part of the process. Despite the qualms that I have with most institutions, I try to remember that they are mere mortals, and that the religion itself, although "exemplified" by them, is not them.

I am curious about your statement on silence in response to your prayers. Is that really true?
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On August 27th, 2007 01:42 am (UTC), ticklethepear replied:
Yeah. I used to feel some kind of response - a sudden insight, or a warm feeling, or even, one time, a voice saying NO in my head. (this was when I asked if I should wait for the boy I liked at the time) Now I rarely "hear" anything, and I'm not sure why.
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On August 28th, 2007 03:45 pm (UTC), congogirl replied:
That is a little disconcerting for sure, but it doesn't seem like something totally out of the ordinary. Have you talked with anyone in your church about it, a mentor or something?
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On August 28th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC), ticklethepear replied:
I have with some close friends, but I just accept it as is now.
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On August 26th, 2007 04:19 pm (UTC), wunderbar commented:
I feel your pain. Except more often, although I do see a lot of negative images about Mormons in the media than of any other churches, besides the Catholic Church. In the end we can only put our faith and trust in God.
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On August 27th, 2007 01:43 am (UTC), ticklethepear replied:
It's kind of like Muslims too - so many stereotypes and suspicions - although the difference is that Mormons are considered very American and super-patriotic. It sucks too for those of us trying to build Mormon-Muslim dialogue.
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On August 27th, 2007 05:57 pm (UTC), wunderbar replied:
Yeah, that's true. I find myself as a Muslim getting along well with Jehovah's Witnesses.
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